medications again


in exchange for a friendship with those nice friends

aww..fallen ill..


after seeking viva, shaun, and gay's advice,i decided to make my blog a private one.yes,i don't have to care about what people says about what i do.its not neccessary.i blog because of the word:"vent."its for me to vent whatever i want to.i have been holding onto alot of things.and i don't dare to say.so i guess,i got to voice it out.cos i finally broke down yesterday.and it was a day most people came to know what had happened to me recently.

yes,i've fallen ill.and a long term one.for those who knew it long ago,such as alvin,shaun,viva,etc,thanks for asking me to go and consult a doctor.especially gay.yes i called you gay.not because you are one,or im disgusting or what.but because you are a nice close friend whom i can rely on for support.whatmore,you are "gay" sometimes.vainpot who says that he is handsome,cute,whatsoever.and i call viva and shaun my bros,cos they behave like one.though i can't count on my brother to takecare of me,these thoughtful chaps are there for me.regardless of the situation.i don't call you guys bro for nothing.cos these words meant something for me.its for people whom are so significant in my life that i don't wana ever lose them.


vommitted yesterday,and sorry to have kept my condition a secret for those who were concerned.my apologies.cause i thought that this is a small matter.don't have to let the whole world know about it.i don't care if there's anyone who care for me or not.as i have people like:viva,shaun,alvin,jeremy,engene,vivienne,shiyi,and mentor to care for me.i love you guys.and never regretted having friends like you guys.i agree with you jer,i know who are the ones who really cared for me.i finally see it.thanks jer.


so i went to the toilet to puke puke and puke.so my poor classmates were following me here and there,everywhere.so sorry to worry you guys.and viva,shaun,and alvin tookme to the doctors,while eugene and jeremy sent me out of school.i really appreciate it so much.i was so touched by what you guys have done for me.from cabbing to polyclinic,to training to ttsh,i could see the support and concern that you guys gave me.


sorry to make you guys wait for me outside.i wasted so much of your time.you guys could have sat for lecture and tutorial.im really sorry.as for alvin,thank you so much for standing by the bed to comfort me,telling me some nonsensical stuffs to make me feel better. and viva=shaun,im thankful that you guys bothered to wait outside for me.it takes alot of patience to just sit outside and do nothing.sorry to make your butts sore after that.


its gonna be 10 soon,and there you guys are,waiting for me.i felt so guilty.so bad that i wished i didn't fall sick.you know,its OPPORTUNITY COST afterall.lessons,time,etc.


so i was admitted and discharged from hospital thereafter.so im back here to blog about my thoughts.


for mentor,i really wana give you a hug.i know you don't like such stuffs.but this came from the bottom of my heart.im so touched by the every little effort that you put in to ensure that i am fine.whether its studies,personal matters,you'd put in effort and time to make things right for me.from the day i knew you,it has been a blessing.you are a loyal and caring friend of mine.from the day when i see that you stood up for me,i knew it that i've got myself a really nice friend.thanks for everything.my results,my mood,its all thanks to you.if not for you,i wouldnt be who i am in poly.


viva bro,im sorry to have troubled you with the access project.and i promise you,exel project will be my turn.i will do it well enough to score.im really sorry.and thank you for suporting me since the day i knew you.you've seen me happy,sad,etc.whatever happens,i'll go to you immediately.you saved my friendship.an important one too.i really wana thank you for that.you're constantly lending your ears to accomodate my rants.not only listening,but you gave me valuable advice too.as a friend,you did alot for me.way too much.so much so much.


alvin gay friend(you vainpot),thanks for everything.from talking nonsense to listening to your BHB speech to hearing your complains to accompanying each other for shopping/makan trips,i appreciate everything.i promised you a meal.its on me. i thought that you were a playmate.like those tiny tots school kids.however,you have your strength too.and i finally got to see it yesterday.you encouraged me,stood by me as a buddy,helped me,took care of me,its something different that i see from you apart from those days when you were busying talking about how handsome you are,how cute you are.its so different when you are serious.oh man,pigs are gonna fly someday.sorry to make you wait too.and you sacrificed your dinner time.im so sorry.

shaun-xuan,thanks for listening to my complains.its nice to chat with you when im down.cos you gave me practical advice.you too,saved my friendship.and it was due to what you've said that helped me pluck up my courage.you made me a better friend to her(you know who).and i wana thank you.if not because of you,i would have lost a friend.and you know,its nice to have a buddying first aider.so cool~ and i will never forget that.you stood by all of us when we needed help.no matter what,you offered your ears to us. so sorry to make you wait outside yesterday.so sorry to worry you.its time for a treat when you guys are free for a meal ok?

A FRIEND IN NEED IS A FRIEND INDEED

this post is dedicated to these four warriors who stood by me when im sick.i love you guys(don't think otherwise)