if one day i could chose to live or die...i will chose to die..cause i can't wait for it.im hoping to die earlier..why didnt that lorry just knock onto me?i missed the lorry by just one step...one step and i could be gone from this world of agony....teens at my age are enjoying with their peers..partying....clubbing.....outing...shopping....haning out....what about me?i have yet to try out anything...i was the BIG mountain tortise compared to many....you may laugh..but i tell you,its not at all....im serious here....

hate my life now...and i wish to take a break from it...you may say i emo,pms,mood swing..but i can tell you guys that you will never know what im going through....


just visualise yourself in a family...a part timer mother with an intellectually disabled brother,with a schizoprenic father and an aunt whose all bossy and calculative....back at father's side,worry that he might beat momo up.back at aunt's place,igot to worry that the things that i use will require electricity....im so sick of my life....very tired...that's why i turn to my friends...and now,i discovered that the friend whom i try to support her 24/7 isnt the friend who can do the same to me....it will never be...but god bless..i have friends called jeremy,shaun,qian yu..they are always there....i love you guys

if i were to live this world,these people will remain in my heart forever....