i rather be that naughty badminton player who just thinks of badminton everyday...eat sleep badminton...how easy can that be?for now,im that girl whose all sickly and lousy...you think im asking for it?who do i chnage for?its not only myself..but for you and bro....you guys were the one who brainwashed me to takecare of you guys when i grew up....i accept the fact that im in this family...im willing to change..what about you guys?i was deprived of the basic fun,enjoyment,etc...why am i holding back?cause i didnt wanna turn bad..i wanna be a sucessful woman in the future whose able to shoulder all responsibilities as the head of the family...now?do you know what was occcupying my mind then???i bet you dont.

not only studies..i scrimp and save whenever i get out..i dont shop for clothes like most teens do...i dont buy things that i'd fancy, i dont waste money on unecessary items...i dont splurge like nobody's business...even im hungry...i dont really eat...what has resulted from it?its my poor and teeny weeny appetite that i have now....

you think im happy,im not ok!!!!!i hate my life..i absolutely disliked what i am today...