blame it on my sensitivity, and a phobia of making friends with certain kind of people. those days are back to haunt me. and you know, i have that feeling that a group of people disliked me. an intuition i guess. well, im gonna keep my hyperactivity low and maintain my poise. i thought that by being playful and childish, i am able to avoid certain things. always had the wrong concept that by being dull and quiet, i will invite more problems. however, the way im behaving now makes me feel that im trying to gain attention, act cute, act funny, etc. im trying to be honest here, im not. up to you to believe. im not. and i will change.

yu chan, i heed your advice