today, was a great day. cause i let go of a burden that was weighing on my shoulders. though i lost something that is priceless, i feel that im beginning to see the world in a clearer light. yes, i may feel depressed about it. however, if i persist, i guess hurt is all i get in return. its been a long journey, from the first day of nyp till now. what ever that has happened during this period of time remained as memories, experience, and a lesson learnt as well. i learnt that no one can please everyone in the world. the only person he/she should please is him/herself. thanks for everything. your laughters, your tears, your jealousy, your care and concern. i guess i learnt alot from you. and what i think i should inherit from you is... bo chapness. im not trying to be sarcastic. but i find it quite true and useful.

as of today, i did something which i didn't do in my life before, which is telling my friends off directly infront of his face. whatmore, that person has been accompanying me throughout sem 1 times. in times of sadness, i had lame jokes to hear. in times of boredom, i had a kaki to accompany me for meals and shopping. when i fell ill, he took great care of me. all these are in my heart. i will never forget.

however, i scolded him today. and its practically shouting at him in the tutorial room. why did i do that? because he insulted a classmate of mine. and a girl too. why use vulgarities on your project mates? can't you talk nicely to her? yes, you may be angry. you could have scolded her, and i will not give a damn about it. but you know, you hurl vulgarities on her. and the word describes a woman's most private area of the body.

don't you feel embarassing as a guy to say such things to a girl? you think vulgarities like this is cool and fun to use, especially targetting a female? yes, we females are vulnerable in a way. but non-gentlemen like you are no better. i repeat again. yes, you may scold her due to some reasons. but why use vulgarities on your project mates? afterall she is your classmate for almost a year.

think about it. why are you alone now? what has happened?

have you ever thought that the things you said can be hurting? it may entertain yourself for that particular minute. what about the rest? do you think everyone is comfortable with your insult and jokes?

i take you as a close friend of mine. i kept quiet on afew occasions when you insulted me. yea, its a joke, why not? but you know that kind of jokes are not so funny? think about it. people called you uncle, police took you to a corner to question you as part of a normal procedure, yet you couldn't take it. what about friends like us?

we became the lead actor and actresses to your insults. it hurts at times, do you know that? scolding you doesn't make me feel any happier. because we are friends.

im not trying to create a hoo-hah out of what happened today. but i wana let you know what is going on. you said that you wana change. where is it? are you becoming better or vice versa? think about it buddy.

im sorry for what happened today

and you think about it again.