today was terrible..i messaged you.yet you ignored me.i was just concerned about you.wanted to remind you to have a good meal before school,as no one was at home.yet you refused to reply.when i stepped into the lab,i saw you standing there happily talking to the others.you know how i feel?it feels horrible.it feels as if you came to school,went to do your feedback without me.whereas before that,i even asked what time are you coming to school.at that moment,i knew that what i told you on friday didnt sink into your ears.since there is no point in us getting so close,might as well just let go.you already made your stand clear,you will never change for the sake of your friends.yes,you did send the message across to me.i got it.and i will never hold on to someone who doesnt care about me.why?cause when i needed you,you werent there.also,when you are with someone in particular,you left me alone for that person.it didnt occur once,twice,thrice,yet its umpteen times.i hate those feelings.you made me belive in friendship.yet you made me regret my decision.sem 1 wasnt like this.where did you go?where is that caring and nice friend?where is the one whom i talk on the phone with often?now it feels so horrible.when i see you,especially in class,its like we are competing in class using our grades.i hate it.now and then when i needed you,you werent there.even though i told you how i feel.how did you react?everything fell on deaf ears.a friend who left with good memories somehow made me leave her with bad memories that surfaced recently.i was very tolerant in a way or so,considering the fact that i dont belive in friendship in the past,and i was rather picking in the friends that i made.now...its you who made me feel so....