everyone seemed fake. thats my catchphrase. like it or not. its true. ever since the hrm incident and extension of holidays, i finally see the pettiness in human beings. i'd like to complicate matters. cos thats the way things are if you view it from a wider perspective. all the politics, pretence, its just too much to mention. prolly it takes me up to a week to just talk about each and every single detail. friends are just there.. though some may be there for you, but they wouldn't be there till the end of time, or even anytime you need time. with the help of my fingers, i figured out how many friends-are the ones who will never ever leave my life. just one hand will do. no, three fingers will do. or maybe, none. thinking through what did each of them did for me from the very beginning when i knew them till now.. it makes me feel that perhaps im petty, perhaps im selfish, perhaps perhaps, and more perhaps to come. i love my friends alot. esppecially the ones whom i am reminded of constantly. everything i do, i want participation coming from you guys.. cos you guys make me feel worthy of every single attention that you have given.

sometimes, things dont just fall into place nicely. when i want my parting to fall on the left, it falls on the right. now that i changed my parting to the right, it went to the left. the only thing i can do is just to accept the fact that not everyone is perfect. i have my flaws too. and i absolutely have no faith in myself these days.. everything i do seems to feel so...i dont know how to explain.. i kept demoralising myself for some idk why reasons. conclusion, its better to keep center parting. its a NO FRILLS WAY.

i really wished that i can find myself friends who will stick with me till the end. not friends. but friend will do. (shaun, joey, you guys did it)

i remembered every single detail, the things that both of you has done for me. i never wana lose you guys.