today was law paper. it feels good to be sitting next to sis and sukhjeet, with ade and gene infront. there is this good feng shui thing.
oh well, sorry nat that you had to sit infront alone. i couldn't find you. as usual, its best to give you more space and freedom.
mixed emotions here and there. i kept contradicting myself. i feel stupid after getting my access test paper. im the stupidest in the class. seriously, from the time school began till today, i had this really bad feeling about my studies. a hunch that i might not excel. blame myself for being slow.
i need to figure a way to break out of this barrier.


today i saw this person whom i feel that im close with, i clarified some matters with her. from her response, i feel that im just an ass. no more text messages regularly, anymore. why do i care when the person doesnt give a damn.

as days pass by, i know who are the ones who will not leave me out, stick with me to the end. no need for further elaborations.





sometimes i feel that im being left out.