sometimes i hoped that my friends dont think of me as being so complicated. im a straight forward person. if i dont like you, i will say it straight into your face, so as to avoid actig friendly with you. i hate to put on an act, tryin got smile at you when i dont wish to do so. i hate appeasing people who are not worthy of my attention.

ytd A text me. i was in the lab with my darlings. as usual i didnt hear the vibration coming from my phone. i was engrossed in doing icts, as well as laughing at zh's jokes. i kinda neglect the presence of my mobile as i left it in my file.

A came into the lab... and asked why didnt i reply. and i said the mobile was in my file. i sincerely apologise for that. it was my fault. but you didnt tell me that you wana meet me the previous day. so i felt that it was unnecessary to keep vigil by my mobile all thetime. i dont wish to get any infra-red related diseases according to ainon.

then next min, i asked one of the darlings why she will appear in the lab. then darling came up to me and said: did you not reply her on purpose? i said i didnt even know that she text me. and nobody understand hwo i felt that time. am i so FAKE? or am i so VICIOUS? perhaps it was sensitivity on my part as i told jon before. but this is a kind of..questioning my honesty and stuff. I SWEAR I DIDNT AVOID REPLYING THE TEXT. I REALLY DIDNT OK. IF I DID,MAY I GET KNOCKED DOWN BY A CAR WHEN I GET OUT OF NYP.

im not as complicated as how some people think. all i am or want is honesty, truthfulness, straightforward. i AM like that. cosi hate actresses and actors in my life. all i want is peace.