these days has made me seen through what kind of person iam. i feel so small.. in fact, i realised that im always causing trouble to the people around me. take this week for instance. fallen ill as usual and my friends rushed to my place and brought me to the docs.. in my heart when i see them approach me, i feel sweetness, care, and concern. deep down, i feel guilty. that they had to waste time coming all the way here, just to ensure that iam safe, and afterwhich, they went back to school again..

i tried so hard to keep myself fit and healthy. this sem, i was absent from school for 2 days out of 1 sem. which was miracle. i took supplement, i ate regularly in school, and i went gym during the holidays. however, it seems that the things that i have done has all went down the drain...

im not trying to grab attention here... but it is how i feel. as i sat on the couch, staring into the tv screen with HRM notes in hand, i felt that i had the need to reflect. im often sickly looking. and i know how it feels when others who sees me with an annoyed look. like: why are you sick again?

since sec school, i had the tendency to fall ill... till date, iam. when can i stop... i dont want to be blacklisted according to mum..