after seeing her funeral,i feel so depressed..when i was with someone yesterday,he asked me something that made me ponder the whole night...he asked me if i really wana die(it kinda caught me off guard)...the other day at eldc...j was telling x about commiting suicide...and that made me think about what is death all about...i remembered other day i dreamt of the hell gods, i told shaun and sis..both gave me a different set of interpretation..i dreamt that i died...the feeling was so lifelike...dont be mistaken that this is an emo post...just a reflection...for now,when i wana do something, i will just do it..i wana die a happy soul.that implies to how i handle everything and everyone..as long as i know im right,i will just go ahead and say and do whatever i can for that person,for myself,my family,my future...