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Wednesday, November 4, 2009 ; 8:33 PM {?}

what is this thing with me growing the shit on my head? though i may look feminine compared to my short hair, im still the same me. the rubbishy and brainless me. as i was walking along the corridor after retrieving my hoody from the locker, i realised there is this man looking at me. i stole a glance at him. who knows it was mr soh. he told me that he saw me last week but i cant be bothered to greet him. honestly i didnt see him at all. i'd like to look on the ground while walking. cant be helped... and he told me:" i like your hair.nice." i was flattered. he made me feel good for once.. cos im often being put don by friends and family members.

and few days ago, my friend told me that my hair doesnt suit me, and i should remove that clip that secures my KALI POK. im kinda caught in between cos the only reason i kept my hair long is due to the repeated reminders from everyone to keep my hair long. and i feel more confident with that hair of mine. im not a typical act cute act chio act pity girl. im a playful, dynamic, tomboyish, girl, not next door, but doors away girl. i hate it when girls try too hard to act cute. its just way too much for me. i wana be independent and have a mind of my own. i wana be a career woman. so whats up with dolling up to attract guys when i can just dress pleasant enough to look like a lady?

and im gonna say it ONE LAST TIME. i transferred out of eldc cos i have my reasons. and not for the fun of it. stop doubting me. cos it simply irritates me. we have been classmates for two years. you jolly well know what kinda person i am. why should i fake it? its not fun having to receive intensive training when the others have already settled down in msc. seriously i dont have to account to you regarding my actions. however, i respect you by not putting you down infront of everybody. i could have just brushed you aside. if you wana doubt me, im not bothered to answer you anymore. cos if you're my true friend, you would have trusted me.

thanks to people who stood by me
vivienne
alicia
shaun
viva
zhen hong
qian yu
jeremy

There's just too much to forqet.